In these past 5-6months around May-June, I became really good friends with this girl, talked on the phone / msn for countless hours..
I never really thought about her as girlfriend potential, and I havn't liked anyone else before so I probably didn't know I did.
What made me realise I liked her is when she hooked up with someone. I actaully saw the boy ask her out but I didn't know what actually happened untill the next school week. Im a highschool student and when I found out this boy had hooked up with one of my only female friends (best) I was pretty surprised. I had a feeling inside, which probably meant I was jealous and liked her. I communicated with her very well, we use to stay up late past midnight talking and shared a lot of stuff. Shes very good to be around shes always being herself the way she talks etc, etc is probably why I Was intrested, she was pretty good looking too
. But hey im only 15 years
So after a month, I started getting really jealous and I had told her I would do something to her boyfriend, and she went " NONO, please don't.. you promise you wont?" And I replied yeah, I promise. Eventually I got impatient so I did mess around with her boyfriend at a party she was attending and he was there, and I surprisly showed up and did something. Later she texted me " WHAT THE HELL ? LIKE SERIOUSLY "
Time went by , she didn't talk to me for 2weeks, then she asked me what was that about, I was very shy so I didn't reeally know how, so my friend asked her bestfriend if she liked me and she told her to tell my friend back No.
At that point she asked " Where do we stand ? " / " Can we still be friends ? " I said IDK, and later slowly started talking, she already knew why I did what I did to her boyfriend but said she wanted to hear it, I was talking with her on the phone prior to when she asked me and I just kept saying " i dunno ". Then she had to blowdry her hair, so I decided to text it then said, ill call you back read your inbox.. Then she told me why can't you tell me this in person, so we arranged to meetup , and I couldnt even say any of it , the most I said was I was jealous and I realised I liked you when you had hooked up with ___ ". Then we just met with other people later and hung out it was pretty awkward because I didnt talk to her at all, and that was one of the first times we hung in a group or 1on1...
I told had told her I would do something to her boyfriend agian, and she called me crying saying please dont.. And I said I didnt, she had already broken up with him to prevent anymore damages. After I had done something again she never talked to me again, till 3weeks later the day she was going to Asia for vacation. She called me in the morning with a friends phone who had went to see her before she left, said i'll call you when im at the airport..
She didn't call, then when she arrived , she said im sorry for not calling you, I replied " i guess were even " because I had done something again correct?...
1week before she had left, she had suddenly started flirting with my friend who I had introduced to her... Later I found out she had liked him a lot, but she couldn't get him because he had been taken by another girl already..
To this day she still constantly talks to him even though she has a boyfriend..
I always wondered what she meant by " can we still be friends " / etcetc.
Recently last month I started connecting with her again even though she has a boyfriend, I skimmed through the other topics and it relates somewhat to whats going on.. We have had 30min-2hour chats on phone and msn.. But its always fun to talk with her because its so easy and she is that type of person.
Question is : Can we still be friends? I always wondered that because if we were still friends, I would eventually end up falling for her again because she isnt changing shes still the same , and thats what made me fall for her the first time..
Looking for any opinions, comments,
Im still very young
She occasionally talks to me about her boyfriend, what should I get for his one month / etc etc / talks about when he does something wrong sometimes and I try to confort her by saying, he's a good guy its a mistake, ( since im good friends with him as well ). But I dont feel as much jealously because ive already went through a series of events, so at this point its just some girl I like, but im positive ill never get so ill have inner feelings that wont matter if I speak it out to her or anyone else because its probably going to be the same as the last time.. I still strongly believe she likes my friend still since they talk often but hey... I can't control what happens.