Question on Age.

19 - you have a full life ahead, DO YOU SEE HIM IN THE FUTURE.

You will have the same situation as he does to you, when you find a guy you're compatible with, you'll talk to him on the phone, spend alone time with him. Your heart will flutter, and think about things.

Now in those shoes, do you still love him? Life @ 19 is different then 21 or 25 or 30.

You're situation might be a REALLY BIG ISSUE for you, but the scope of your life, will you look back and cry your ass to sleep every bloody day? If you're not with him, or 2 years down the road, you'll look back and thats just a dumb ass mistake?

Have you asked yourself questions??

19 and asking revscene for DIRECTION is not the way to go.

Your life is about you. You should distant yourself from anything that causes you grief.

Love is all relative. You say you love him but to fact is that there's no one else besides him for you to love. People are generally afraid of change, that's why u stayed with him and want to be back with him after all that has happened. Look at all these abusive relationships ppl r in. These ppl believe that their SO will change but they never do. People DON'T CHANGE. If u'r banking on the fact that u can change him then I sorry to say that it'll never happen. He will continue saving pics of "HER" and texting "HER" and what not no matter how hard u try to stop him. If u'r not cool with that then the only thing u can do is to remove urself.

All things aside, can you satisfy ALL his sexual needs? Do you watch porn with him or do you expect him to finish himself off without any aids?

If you loved him that much, you wouldn't have slept around during the break. Now you must be thinking, "but it's my right, we were on a break." It's also his right to keep those pictures on his computer and fap to them but you have been depriving him of that right.

Conclusion is that both you and your boyfriend/ex don't know how to love.