:alone::alone::alone:

Is ok. Try to experience 2 break up in a year. That's painful.

Have a long distance relationship lasted for 3 years and ended it around April 2016. Things just aren't working out and I guess when we can only see each other like 1 to 2 months a year doesn't really help. Although we wechat everyday is just not the same. There are times when she needed my support and I wasn't there and other times I just want to talk to her, a hug and can't. Also neither of us really want to change our lives (she doesn't really want to come to Canada since she got a decent job already, doesn't want to leave her family etc etc). There is also no way I am going to back China. We both agree a break up is best. We still care for each other so it always felt werid when we chat. Anyways she is happy now since she got a new bf. I am happy for her. We still chat just not as much. Hopefully she have found the one and will get marry.

Around July/Aug 2016 I meet up with a friend for dinner. She brought some of her friends with her and we all exchange our phone no. After a while I asked one of the girl out. It was alright. I feel ok. To her I guess she wasn't really into me or something (not sure why she agree to date if she isn't even interested). Drag on till last week when she finally broke up. I have to say it was the worse break up/relationship I have. During this whole time I always felt something about her like when we are out she would be super happy, exicted and just seem have fun. However, almost everytime afterwards should would message just keeps asking weird questions and always want to know why I said certain things.

IE. My sister baby is around 5 months old so being very cute I would sometimes send her pics or video of me playing with the baby. It wasn't mean anything I just want to see how cute the baby is. She would go into her rage mode basically yelling am I am going out with her just to have a baby or I am giving her pressure to have a baby and she is not ready to have a baby yet etc etc.... is like just chill out is doesn't mean anything. But to her she just think of all the possibilities of why I send her the pics/video.

Or she would keep saying she want eat in places with vegetables. Then she would suggest place like BBtea place for dinner. Which doesn't have much veggies. So I am not sure why she complains.

She would never pay for dinner or anything when we are together. Claims she is going to school. I totally get that part since going to school and living on her own isn't easy especially she is an international student (her fmaily isn't that well off). I don't mind it but sometimes she would ask for something that's..... I am not sure if she joking or being serious. Once she ask me to pay for her tution. I told her that's something she should be paying and just leave it at that.

In the end she message and said there are too many difference we think to differently, and she only dated me coz I keep pressuring her to and also her parents wanted her to found someone. But the whole time she wasn't happy and felt pressured by me forcing her to do stuff she hated. I didn't really force her to do anything. Mostly I plan things and ask if she enjoy it or is she happy just in case she isn't so I know what she doesn't like to do . Simply to her I should know what she likes without asking. WTF lol. I am not a mind reader.

It wasn't that bad but I mean if I known she would break up after Xmas I wouldn't have got her a new jacket. Overall I wasn't too unhappy. She is right though our personality is too different. She thinks too much overall and just can't seem to have fun.