El Bastardo | 02-24-2013 01:50 PM | Once upon a time I knew a person who had a serious addiction problem. They refused to take personal responsibility for their own actions and constantly flaunted the fact that other people fixed the problems that this person didn't want to take responsibility for. They were terrible with money and every dollar that entered their pocket left just as quickly for their entertainment. #yolo right?
Once this person went to rehab they went through the steps and had a hard time on the step everyone has a problem with, step four. Taking a long hard look at your life and taking a moral inventory of yourself. Admitting your problems to yourself and confronting them. No more self denial.
From every thing I read about diesel_test it sounds like he has some demons to confront. Some real issues he has buried deep down that he needs to deal with. Its obvious he has some problems taking responsibility for his actions, some legitimate addiction problems, and people who enable him by bailing him out.
ib4 he comes and says "Man, you don't know me. What the fuck are you talking about?"
I think we here on Revscene probably know you better than your friends do. See, you show up on Revscene and treat this as a place to get the advice on issues that you can't talk to your friends about, probably out of embarrassment. I get it. The internet is anonymous and sometimes its hard to maintain eye contact with a person you feel is judging you.
You need help, man. You do. And the sooner you admit it to yourself the better.
Everyone on here thinks you're trolling and maybe you want to tell yourself that you are but I took a look at your account, and the other accounts linked to this one. Once upon a time you had another account, didn't you? And you said some of the same things. You talked about money, you talked about wanting to start businesses, and you aspired to "work with your hands" and be your own boss.
Its pretty obvious to me and the other guys here that you're afraid of a lot of things in the world. Growing up. Taking responsibility. Having enough money to do what you want.
Those are natural fears but you're handling them in an un-natural way. Its not healthy.
You need help and if you want, you can PM me and we can talk. |