Originally Posted by oniyou
what if i told you i was just 19? yeah, maybe im still young, but like what one poster said previously, i too, have never fallen so hard in my life before. It seems to me that none of my ex's ever mattered, and i feel that i will never be able to completely get over my most recent one. I hear all these words of encouragement, about how " you're still young, plenty of fish in the sea " , but hey, the whole ocean doesn't even matter anymore when you've got your heart set out on just that one girl.
i've heard some things recently from her, and now i strongly believe that the answer is still going to be a " no ". I don't feel i should even waste my time, not even for just that one hour that i'd get to talk to her. Reflecting on how i treated her in the past, the things i've done for her and the things we went through together, i still wonder how the hell it was so easy for her to let go of everything, and not even look back.
oh well, i feel that just maybe it was meant for me to go through this roller coaster ride of shit at an earlier stage, so i'd be experienced and not perform the same mistakes i did in this relationship. Instead of moping around living in the past, i should pick up my shit and worry about my future, and strive to improve myself. Maybe then in the future if we were come across each other again, she'd realize it was her loss, and things will go my way for once.
What i'm just scared of now is that even though i'd try to move on, i'd never be capable of completely getting over someone who i've loved and cared so much for.
You're right, just worry about your future! Learn from your relationship with your ex! Whatever flaws you thought you had with her, work on it. IE: (hit the gym, work on your confidence, study hard, play sports)
I was in your shoes back in the day, I had a 'highschool sweetheart' and we went out for 5 years (with ~1.5 years in University), then we broke up... it's tough beans. It was the listen to stupid slow jams in the night and reminice sadness (HAHA) but, you can't do anything about it except wait out the heartache and move on.
You're only 19..believe me, you will meet someone better than her. You got this buddy, just tough it out.
PS. DO NOT PUT HER ON A PEDASTAL.
PPS. Don't start doing anything destructive like heavy drugs, drinking excessively, smoking.