Originally Posted by 6o4__boi
(Post 8588935)
I got a few derp moments but this one stands out for me the most.
Back in hs i was dating this chick on/off.
Anyway, we were having a fight of the century moment and called shit off for a few weeks.
At the time, pretty sure it was done but still kinda liked her.
A few days after, girl i've known from way back texts me and asks why we never chill anymore so we text back and forth the next little while. She's pretty hot, girl next door attitude and i didn't go for her earlier on in hs because she was tight with one of my best buddies and i'm pretty sure he liked her. She tells me shes in some whatever special academic program on the island for a month, tells me to come visit if i can cus she gets pretty bored in her dorm (i lived in van).
Meanwhile, on/off gf texts me and starts apologizing and suggests that maybe we could still work things out, give her time, space yada yada yada. I'm like whatever let me know when you're not a bitch and we'll talk.
I plan on making the trip to the island to see her for a weekend. On/off gf comes over the day before i bounce, we chat, kinda make out but didn't really do shit cus she says it still doesn't feel right, blah blah blah. So she leaves, at this point, i know we're still off.
Go to the island the next day. Spent the first day just chatting and catching up (we went to different schools and rarely saw each other since the early days of hs). Asked her if shes with anyone she said nope, and she asked about my on/off gf since we've been at it for a while. Told her its messed up and probably over. Anyways, we get to talkin about where i'm gonna sleep for the night, cus the dorm has like a single bed, and a small armchair. She said she didn't mind sharing the bed.
Receive a text from on/off gf, says shes ready to talk when i'm free, things look rosy, blah, blah. I ignore it somewhat but it was on the back of my head.
We go for dinner, chat some more, figure we're connecting really well. Get to bedtime, i'm lying down and shes lying beside me. Kinda silent for a bit then we started making out. Was getting hot and heavy but for some reason, at the last moment, i chickened out. We were pretty much naked. I knew she wanted it and i did too but for whatever dumb fucking reason my head wasn't in it. For some reason it felt like i was cheating even though i knew i wasn't. I can't describe it but whenever i think back its always like, what the fuck was i thinking then. I had it, then and there. So we make out for a bit, before it gets serious i pull some dumb excuse that i wasn't sure if this was a good idea and all that shit, leave it for now, see how it goes later. She doesn't resist but we stop, there was silence for a while, kissed her good night and slept with our backs to each other. I get blue balls for being a dumb fucking moron. Breakfast was awkward as fawkkk. So i ended up leaving earlier than scheduled. Was hoping to catch the last sailing, heck, i was hoping to skip the first day of school if all went well but i ended up leaving early cus it felt awkward.
Kinda texted for a little bit more after that but we ended up losing touch and haven't seen her since. Saw on/off gf after i came back (blue balls relieved), we tried it again for a few months but ultimately didn't work out cus she's a bitch.
Anyway, every now and then i've always wondered what if. It was probably one of those missed opportunities. |