LOL at how the OP even thinks it's OK to initiate contact after admitting to "scarring" someone. 3 years is not a long time... I've seen marriages end over decades so stop being a pussy. In cases like this, it is up to her to want to reach out. You fucked up and you should leave her alone. You sound pretty controlling and/or desperate for her attention, this is not a good look.
At the most, I would advise some deep personal reflection then you can apologize for your actions (you must back up why you acted the way you did) but that's it. If you do send a single apology/explanation for your actions, don't expect anything further. When you reach out an olive branch to someone, you can't set up the expectation that anything will materialize from that..otherwise, you're not apologizing genuinely... you're just saying what you think needs to be said in order to receive a reaction therefore some sort of validation from this person.
PS: If you were my ex, I would just punch you in the face.
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[19-07, 22:39] dinosaur i have felt up ri2 before
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